like to share my perception, my understanding of what God is.
And although I feel that it is not necessary to share the
experiences that have led to my understanding, I would like to state
that my concepts come from more than an intellectual view, a
rational mind. They come from my Heart, because for lifetimes I have
rationalized myself to death. What I seek in the Eternal NOW is
Okay, so to me God just IS. It, He, She is the
Original Source, the One from which all is derived. That is simple
enough, Is there more?
If I were asked to define God, I could
state it was to BE. God is active, intelligent, awareness,
Therefore presuming that God is BEING, you are God, I
Am God, Mother Earth is God, the Universe is God. Fair enough, I
like being/playing God. But then what is the reason of/for God. Why
am I playing here? What is the Cause, the underlying principle and
for that matter why is God? Damn it, Why am I here?
would prefer to accept that there must be a rather simple answer.
Why, you say (I heard you)? Something that just IS has to be the
ultimate, supreme simplicity.
When I think of what is BEING,
the only answer that comes to mind is Experiencing Oneself. Hey,
that's good, that's God. I Am here in my world, experiencing all
kinds of shit. Alright, along with the occasional moments of Love
and Joy. How did it all start?
Was the Big Guy sitting one
day, contemplating his navel, thinking I've got an itch but I don't
know where it is. Then he began to chuckle as he thought, if I Am
infinite how am I going to find that itch. Then he started to laugh
and laughed so hard that He burst. Now that supports the big bang
theory. We must be getting close.
Maybe He was smarter than
the average All That Is and said "I know, I WILL manifest my SELF
and find that itch. After all I have the necessary tools. I AM
ENERGY and really that is all that matters. THAT'S IT!! I WILL shape
my Self into little bits and call it Matter. I can then see myself
and find that itch for sure. That's the spirit, ever
Okay I now have got the energy. Lets call it Spirit,
because it IS a part of me and I Am a Great Spirit. And I have got
an infinite number of tiny balls of Spirit that I have called
Matter, … because they do. What else do I need? I KNOW! I am not
just another pretty face, I Will toss the matter around and form
bigger balls. I Will attract some so that they may unite, Become One
and everything Being equal, because that's IS only fair, I Will
Hey All you other All That Is guys, this is
fun. I Am Loving IT.
What have I got? Lets see, my, my, my, I
have got a Trinity. There is me, just Loving this I Am, I Am, and I
have got the Spirit to Matter. That Will make a difference. On to
find that itch.
RIGHT, so this is the Bigger Picture. The Big
Guy IS having nothing but fun. How does this apply to me. After all
if I Am a God too, WHAT AM I TO DO? With it All?
Okay, I have
got a Spirit, I think, and I have got this physical body (not bad
lookin, I might say either). Hey guys, I would LOVE you to get
together. I need more fun here, I need to BE a bigger part of the
"But Why", She says.
where did .. She .. come from, I thought there were only Guy Gods
"Dear One", She says (me thinks I have got a
problem Huston), "only opposites attract, so how do you think God
attracts parts of Itself to other parts". I Knew That! Okay you can
STICK around…….. Why? …..Because I want you too!
NOW I KNOW
THAT I AM a guy God, where does She come in? Does that mean that
when I become All that I can BE, a true guy God that I WILL attract
her, a girl God, and maybe someday we would marry and have a baby
God? Hey I could get to like this idea, She IS not bad lookin, for a
Goddess. Hey, how do Goddesses and Gods make LOVE? NOW I bet you
THAT IS fun. HEY wanna get lucky…….er I mean would you LOVE to make
a family. You and me and baby makes three. God, there IS That
Trinity again. Maybe it is below as it IS above. Okay, so I Love to
get lucky, so Love makes the world go around. Does that mean God Is
Love? Heard that somewhere before.
Doin' mighty fine here,
but now you have to tie this in with the rest of the
Lets see, what is Love? Attraction, yes. Caring,
compassion, sharing, I do all that. What about good ol Mother Earth
and all the rest they call my relations.
"WELL", She says
(there SHE IS again) "Does Mother Earth give of Herself to the blade
of grass in order that it might grow? Does the blade of grass give
of Itself to enable the grazing Deer to GROW? Does the Deer give of
Itself to the Native Son in order that he might feed and clothe his
children? Are not each One of these BEINGS a part of God giving of
Itself to God?"
Okay, okay I get the point. But I Am not part
of the food chain.
"But you are part of a Greater Chain"
(that Goddess again, is she my conscience too?) "No, Dear One, just
your better half". Gawd, I think That I Am in trouble.
were we, oh yah, this Love thing. Tell me more.
that Love IS what attracts. But IT IS so much more. You said that
Love makes the world go around. But IT IS so much more. LOVE IS the
intelligent active force of God, HIS WILL. It is Love that creates,
that binds the Universe together, in its infinite forms. Do you
really think that you create? Is it not LOVE that creates through
you? Are you not a vessel for your Spirit manifesting through your
conscious waking world? Are you…"
WAIT A MINUTE!! Not me MAN,
I Am just a wannabe trying to cope with all this shit and
"NOW you wait a moment, Beloved of my Heart, YOU ARE
THEREFORE I AM"
Where did She go? WHO was
THAT? GOD, was that you? WOW, it was the Big Guy, how did he KNOW I
"KNOW THAT I AM. I AM LOVE, I AM ALL THAT IS."
THEREFORE I AM THERE"
"I AM ETERNAL LOVE"
guess there IS more to the bigger picture than I thought. Where is
that Goddess, mighty fine lookin she was, she was? Live in the
moment, they say. God IS LOVE they say. GOD IS ALL THAT IS. I guess
then that LOVE is all there IS. WOW, LOVE IS! I knew that. I must
keep on keeping on BEING WHO I AM. It is a good thing THAT
I Am Stephen
and Beloved I Am